I have talked about my sister in; http://katshel.blogspot.com/2013/01/my-sister.html. The church I grew up in; http://katshel.blogspot.com/2013/01/new-year-looking-backway-back.html. Abuse; http://katshel.blogspot.com/2013/05/not-fun-topic-abuse.html and some of the reasons for my weight issues that stem from the abuse; http://katshel.blogspot.com/2013/02/foodweight-issues.html.
This last week I had the opportunity to share with a friend, and found in the aftermath that the adversities my hubby and I face are quite significant. I am going to attempt to tie it altogether for you, and hopefully give you a picture of my perspective.
Last night as I lay my head down to go to sleep we started this episode; Through the Wormhole with Morgan Freeman-Is poverty Genetic? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pP4ihwmY-DQ
The bible also talks about the sin of our fathers will be passed to the children in Deuteronomy 5:9. Why? Well, if you teach and model sin to your kids, they will also sin and it goes on and on. Just like in the study of poverty being genetic...we pass down what we don't know as well as what we do know.
When I was in my 20's I was so angry with my parents as I blamed them for screwing me up. I think most people in their 20's go through this stage as you transition into full fledge adultism. Part of it could be the sins of my fathers, but part is how he grew up and how his father grew up and so forth. There is a reason the bible is filled with genealogies dating back to Adam and Eve. There is something that stirs us to find out about where we come from...there is a website now and there was once a show on tracking down your roots....you can google it.
Hubby and I come from divorced homes, and we saw all the fighting, and turmoil from two people who couldn't figure out how to love each other. We saw sin in our formative years, and I have trama from my childhood with bouts of PTSD from what I have seen and heard and lived through. It is only by God's unlimited Grace that I am not addicted to anything, in jail, on the street, and have a great job, with a husband who has been through the same things, and experienced the same Grace.
Our lives right now, is a giant experiment on a grand scale to see if we can raise two kids that love the Lord and can grow up with more happy memories than painful ones. If they can finish college and be in a higher financial class than we were able to achieve...to live the American Dream: "a set of ideals in which freedom includes the opportunity for prosperity and success, and an upward social mobility achieved through hard work." When hubby and I were married, God gave us a word that our marriage, and that of his sister was the Generational Sin Breaking Marriage. See all of our parents, and grandparents and so forth have suffered through divorce and remarriage. The fracturing of family after family has been passed down.
My job, my hope, my life is to bring peace, and wholeness to my family. My past and my hubbies past have to be reference points to learn from as we discover the Grace that God has for us and our kids. Hubby and I have mountains of adversity to overcome as we walk through life together, we are survivors, victors, and by Grace we have been saved.
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