Marriage...Love & Respect

Hubby and I are taking the class at church...NVIEW.ORG Last night was only the second one, but there were so many points and insights. We have been married going on 12 years as of Aug 2014. We have both struggled with this thing called marriage.

I don't understand why it is such a struggle. I feel like he is my world, my everything, I would be lost with out him. I feel like I can't express that enough, and have it be received as how I really feel.

I express how I love to people with gifts and acts of service...favorite Ice Cream, A picture on FB, Making cookies, doing laundry, doing dishes, cleaning, finding that treasure in the store that makes me think of that person.

I receive love with words of affirmation, and when people give me gifts that really took effort and thought to give.

On our first week of marriage, I read the 5 Love Languages to my hubby...I  was so encouraged and eager to have a great relationship, I sped along leaving my spouse in the wake of my discovery. I am a working mom, that needs to work, not to financially survive but to emotionally survive. My history of hurt and inconsistencies as a child have changed my core character to need the structure and validation of my effort on a daily/weekly/monthly basis. I don't handle life well without the constant validation. In so many ways I am addicted to it. I need to know that I am doing well, because my self talk is so dark. Little by little, day by day as I take captive the negativity I get stronger.

As a strong willed woman I pray I can submit long enough and well enough to not push us both into oncoming traffic. I love my man!

I hope I don't run out of TIME....and I can learn to let go and enjoy my life! I will keep working on loving and respecting, one day at a time.