Diabetes

Since Dec I have been diagnosed with Type II diabetes. I have been taking medication to help my sugars, changed my diet and started exercising more. I have met with Dietitians, Diabetic Nurse, and of course the Doc.

I kept it quiet for a long time. Not wanting people to judge me on my food choices or lifestyle choices. However, it is more than that.

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I have now told my story of abuse with food and exercise over and over so the emotion isn't there anymore. I feel like I have forgiven the person that abused me in that way, but now I am forced to lose the weight. I was told once that if you don't control yourself, you will eventually be forced to stay in control.

There are so many aspects to this issue as well. My kids are one-they want to know what is wrong with mom. Why mom isn't eating the same thing they are. Rachel had a nutritionist at her school and came home talking about it. She made mention for her perspective what I can and can't eat. I have many friends at work that also have Type II. If I ask a single question, they feel it is fair game to start telling me exactly what I should be eating, doing, medications, and other advice.

I told my mom, who acted weird around me for awhile. Asking what I can and can't eat, why this would happen if it was a genetic thing. I haven't been brave enough to tell my dad or step-mom yet. When I told my sister-in-law last weekend, and cousin, they were super understanding.

Since Dec I have lost almost 10 lbs. The nutritionist said today that I am doing really good choosing the right foods, just have to add the exercise portion to it. I am also working on the emotional side of things.

"Good fruit cannot come from continuing anything due to guilt, shame, or fear." Jones-Let-Go 193