So much to say So little time

I like to listen to NPR. What is NPR your ask? National Public Radio

I listen to it all day at work and learn so much. I wish I could talk back as I listen and join the conversation. However, I can't talk on the phone...talk personal with my co-workers, get on any non work web sites so I have lots of comments all day. I hope to get home and type them all out on this cool thing to invite more conversation. However, by the time I have three different conversations with hubby, a quick chat with mom, play with the kids, cook dinner, serve dinner, clean up, do dishes or guilt my 8 year old to doing the dishes, sit and eat, and get on the computer, I forget. I forget all the beautifully phrased arguments I have been thinking about, forming and going no where.

So a rant....My job sucks right now. The Union and the Company are working out a new contract for labor and I feel like I am worth krap! We got an email that says we need to track potty breaks, when we help our co-workers, talk to anyone about anything. Some people are even refusing to talk about anything personal on the floor. I care about all the people I work with, and my customers, probably a little too much. But that is why I am good at my job. I am honest, hard working, and caring. I feel like a monkey....push buttons, don't talk, don't think, but don't mess up and you better do it fast, and have a good attitude.

Aaahhh....on a side note. We can't get a house cause we need a $300,000 house for $200,000 and we have just a little egg to put down for closing costs, earnest money, inspections, ect. I feel locked into a system. We just watched Dr Who Season 3.4 about the New New York and the Traffic Jam-for years and years there was an outbreak of a virus that killed the upper city. The population of the upper city locked the lower levels to save the lower level population. They were dying of smog, stuck in cars for years and years moving a few feet every once and a while. That is how I feel. We are stuck in a system of paying out everything we get in and never getting ahead or moving out of all the monopolies.

There are more houses over $1 million than the rest of the whole country, and the housing costs are going up...not down. There are not many new houses in the area and if there are new houses, they are over $250,000. If they are under that, they will need at least $20,000 worth of work to really make them live-able.

Facebook asks me how I am doing now and then. Well, that rant being over we are doing really good. (I know a total contradiction to what I was just saying) We have money in the bank, jobs, food, a roof over our heads, in-door plumbing, pets. Our kid goes to a private school and is doing great at her work. We have TV, go on dates, have a great church, wonderful times together as a family. We have great friends and we have big dreams!

In the face of all the odds against us, I am believing that God will do what needs to be done to fulfill our hearts desires. The end is not the goal it is how you get there...so am I going to be thankful for everyday no matter where I end up? Yes I am!