Messy, Fun, Christmas

I have a friend who is in ministry and did a talk on getting messy, and having it be ok. That God accepted our mess and chose to come anyway understanding we aren't perfect. That is what Jesus came to us for-to help us with our mess, to have our mess be ok! I love this picture!!!

I have struggled so much with perfection....to the point where I stopped living or even starting feeling defeated before I began. I was worried I wasn't good enough, I couldn't do it the way I saw it in my head so I just didn't. I used to own the original Nintendo...with Super Mario Brothers, Pac-man, Lion King Game, Tetris and the only game I really played was Tetris...and still love that game along with Soda Crush and my new addiction, Candy Crush. But the reason I never played the others...is because one time I had a neighbor-friend show me how to save the princess in Super Mario Brothers. When I tried to replicate his movements I found my hand-eye coordination could not make Mario jump when I wanted or run, so I could never get past the castle from 1.3. I gave up, and never tried to save the princess. Now and then I will try again on my WII, and show the kids how to do it, but still I feel defeated.

This year, my goal is to reclaim my fun by jumping in and trying....everything. I got 'Wreck this Journal' for christmas today. I looked through a few pages and almost started crying cause I was afraid to do what it said, to rip pages and play! I am afraid to play. I tell the kids I can't play cause I don't share very well, but the truth is I am afraid. I am afraid I will get too messy or ruin all the fun. I am afraid of so much that I just don't before I even try. By not playing though, I am missing the fun. I am missing a vital part of who I am. I am missing on trying to see what happens, on enjoying life.

Step 1-Play games with kids
Step 2-Play with 'Wreck this Journal'
Step 3-Have a food fight
Step 4-Play in the mud-go on a mud run
Step 5-Stomp in puddles
Step 6-Throw dirt
Step 7-Have a water fight
Step 8-Wreck something I care about
Step 9-Break a dish or vase
Step 10-Take a photo of each step and write about the experience

I do so solemnly promise to do my best to complete each task before the start of 2016. I will allow myself to cry, to feel, to be anxious about doing this, to have fun! Want to join me?? Tell me about it! Tell me how you play!