Today is 5/20/2024, and since the last time I wrote there have been a few things that happened between me and my dad.
This is hard for me to write out. I don't want to, but when God tells you to do something, you do it.
You can read: http://katshel.blogspot.com/2024/02/battle-scars.html for the back story.
March 2024 Denice showed up at my house a couple more times, so I stopped by their house to attempt another conversation with my dad. Denice greeted me at the door with, 'Kathryn, I want to knock the shit out of you so hard. I am so sick of all your lies.' 'Your dad doesn't love you and wants you to leave.' I responded with, 'I am not going anywhere.' To which she responded that she was calling the police. The sheriff showed up and I talked to him for a few minutes to let him know that I just wanted to have a conversation with my dad. It costs me $83 to file a restraining order. I would have to file one for me and Owen to my dad, one for me and Owen to Denice, One for my daughter to my dad and one for my daughter to Denice. That would be a total of $332.00 that I don't have.
I don't really even want to file a restraining order against either of them. I thought it would be cheaper and easier to just have a conversation. I left quietly leaving the sheriff to talk with my dad and Denice.
Things got quiet again. I was invited to LifeSurge on Saturday May 18. Ed Mylett, spoke directly to me that day. He talked about his alcoholic dad and the transformation his dad made before his last day, and hour of his life. I was bawling by the end, because my heart to see my dad transform burns like a fire in my soul.
I got home to learn Denice came to my house on Saturday while I was gone and talked to my tenant/boyfriend Jason for over an hour. Hurled threats against me and then said she had gifts for my daughter. It has taken me till today, 5/20/2024, to really pray and ask God what I should about this situation. I decided to write my dad a letter.
I feel like in many ways, I am spiritually battling for my dad's soul. Only God knows what my dad truly feels about me. I pray that before his last day on earth that we are able to reconcile.
It can't be a Kathryn thing, it can only be a God thing. As I sing this song, my heart fills with hope.
Kim Walker-Stones https://youtu.be/y6WnMuoZYOg?si=UmwrIVuQPJyXTG7A
